My Oh Sh!t Moment

The way I found out I was pregnant gives new meaning to the word "accident."

The hubs and I had tried to get pregnant a thousand ways to Sunday for over a year before I completely gave up in the spring of 2010. I honestly thought it just wasn't in the cards for us. We started looking into adoption, infertility clinics, I had started getting testing done because I was convinced I couldn't have children for some reason. When we moved into our new house in New Hampshire in the summer of 2010, pregnancy was the last thing on my mind -- I was out of a job, my car had just been wrecked, and the hubs had just started his new job. It was the anniversary of our first date though, and the hubs and I celebrated by going for a hike. Once we got back I headed for the shower; I was looking for shampoo, which was still packed in a box marked "Bathroom" somewhere. Instead of shampoo, I found a single pregnancy test.

I was still not in a good place mentally about getting pregnant, and truthfully, I didn't want the damn test in my house, mocking me from behind the bathroom mirror. I found the shampoo, unwrapped the stick and peed on it to get rid of it, so that at least I could throw it out used. Then I hopped in the shower and forgot about it.

When I got out of the shower, I saw this:

I almost fell out of the tub.

And because we didn't have the box, I had no idea what I was looking at. I ran downstairs, still wrapped in a towel with soaking wet hair, and I googled "positive pregnancy test."

A million images came up, but I had to go to the e.p.t website for the instruction booklet. Which said, in fact, yes, I was pregnant.

Stunned silence is what followed. My heart pounded. I told the hubs to turn off the Sox game for a second, and I showed him the test. His jaw hit the floor. "Is this what I think it is?"

I remember that moment as the day everything turned on a dime. Everything looked and felt different to me. It was the beginning of an amazing journey.

Approximately 36 weeks later, my little bear cub showed up early.

And we couldn't be happier.